A little late

So it's been almost a week since I posted last! Sorry I've been kind of busy trying to go to work and then resting most of the time because I'm so tired. Lately I've been feeling pretty good and back to normal almost. I've noticed that my hair is starting to slowly fall out. O.o I'm going to probably have to wear a wig in another month here. My emotions seem to be back to normal now that I stopped taking my Ativan for nausea since I'm no longer feeling nauseous these days. And I can eat normally! Sort of! There are some foods I can't stomach still (never eat a tuna sandwich the day of chemo. JUST AVOID IT. I will probably never touch a tuna sandwich again! Ugh just thinking about it makes me sick) I discovered the benefits of Matcha Green Tea and am now drinking the stuff like an addict (it's seriously good, least to me. Most people I hear think its gross) I've read that at least 3 cups of green tea per day can reduce breast cancer risk by 50%. Granted I've already got breast cancer, but it may help with reducing my reoccurrence risk. Also it promotes apoptosis, where your cells commit suicide to prevent unnecessary cells from continuing to grow and divide, this turning into cancer cells. The more I promote my body's apoptosis the better! Ha! I also read that iodine promotes it as well but I'm not 100% sure on that one.. I got my blood work results on Wednesday (watched them pull the blood from my chest because you know that's not creepy at all) all my results were normal save for my immune system which was a little low, but not enough to where I was still in normal range! I still have to wear a mask at work, but for the most part I'm okay so far which they thought was unusual xD I should've been lower than I was! But hey my diet must be working well with my body! The chemo is working though. The one week of downtime was proof of that and my now falling out hair is another sign of proof. I could've gone to comicon darn it! Oh well..  I am a little upset over the fact were doing our shift bid next week and I have chemo scheduled that day so I have to have someone else bid for me. Problem is that they, I guess reduced the 25 hour slots, and some of us 25 hours might be taken to 20. My contract says 25 hours! I do not want 20!!! Siigh work life. We will see what happens I guess. This week was just normal for once. I've had more energy, no need for medications, eating well and etc. The 10th is my next chemo treatment and I am dreading it! I don't look forward to feeling sick but I have hope my medications will keep the nausea away. Bobby has been coming over keeping me company most of the time, sometimes though he will need his guys night! Like this weekend he went camping without me :'( Oh well I had to work and I still have to be careful. So I've been doing some artwork and relaxing drinking my Matcha Tea! I've also been having Alaska on the brain and cruises. I would love to go on an Alaskan cruise sometime. Considering maybe next year for our two year anniversary? I don't know I'll have to see how much I can save up. My parents spent about 5,000 on their trip and I don't make enough to save up that much that fast, at least not when I have bills to pay. So it'll be interesting to see if we can go or not. One of my friends at work was talking to me about how his good friend just passed away suddenly and it made him realize just how short life is and to see how I'm holding up, and that I am one of the toughest girls he's ever met for being able to fight through this and keep going with a smile. I'm not so sure I would say I'm the toughest girl he's ever met, cancer isn't easy and I do have my breakdowns. Half the time I pretend its not really happening (save for my diet I always try staying on check with that like this morning Ashley brought cupcakes to work like she does almost every weekend and I had to struggle not to eat one of those bite sized cupcakes!) which helps make it easier on me, it helps me come to terms with hey I have cancer. Okay well I'm not going to let it get to me and I am going to live my life as normal as possible. But my friend was right about life being short and that you can't take anything for granted, that you have to seize the opportunity to live rather than letting it slip through your fingers the next day. As he put it, one day with a person brings so much joy and is so much better than if they never existed at all. So I am trying to live everyday like its my last (within reason) still though I can't wait for this to be all over with. I am sad that kids may or may not be an option for me in the future (unless they finally have stem cell babies available!) but I've got ten more years to think about that I guess. Bright side about it is, I'll have all the years to save up and prepare for it rather than starting off unprepared and financially unstable for a child. I guess I'm just going to end up being the friend who spoils her friends babies ;) (watch out Kacie! I'm hyping up your babies on sugar and handing them back to you bahahahaha) :) so yea that's pretty much been my week. Not too interesting this time around. Just normal save for the fatigue. :D