Chemo infusion #2!

Okay so here's the day. Chemo infusion #2! Hope this is better than the last, but I don't think it will be. I haven't posted much in the last week or so just because there wasn't much to say since everything's been normal ever since I got my blood results. Still wearing a mask to work, and oh I'm now bald! Yep shaved my head because the hair was falling out in clumps.. Didn't want to go to work with a giant bald spot! I was surprised to see how perfectly round my head is, could've sworn the top would be flat just because I have no problems balancing items on top of it and running around without it falling off. Now what excuse do I have to explain it! Lol Bobby and I are still looking at houses but its gotten discouraging. The second we find a nice one its gone within the hour. My Dad keeps trying to convince us to look at new houses in the area, I found one that was in my opinion perfect for price, size of the house and backyard. Not to mention the neighborhood is fit for Bobby, hiking trails, mountain view, green parks, (for me I believe there's a community tennis court) The only downside to it is Bobby thinks its "too far" and he doesn't want to spend extra on gas money going to work. But hey he won't be spending extra gas money to come visit me at my folks place anymore which is kind of saving him money for gas for work right? Not to mention jobs change (unless you plan on being stuck in that position forever) and I know he's looking to move up. So I don't know. He can't base his opinion just on the now, especially if its a house were going to be in for 10+ years. What if his next job is further away from the house we do get?? I don't know honestly. I frankly speaking, don't care about distance over the quality of my home. It's where you go to de-stress, relax, and enjoy time away from work. It's home. Distance between work and home aren't really an issue to me unless its like a 2 hour commute. But 30-45 minutes? That's pretty much normal to me. I guess he's just more worried about the money he has to spend on gas. If he had a better paying job, the distance probably wouldn't bother him at all. Oh well.. We will keep looking until that house is found! I'm not too worried about what houses we look at, I trust his moms opinions on the houses that we're shown if I wasn't able to make it. It's Bobby's opinion I'm a bit iffy on xD. He's gotten better though! I just hope we can find it before being so discouraged that we give up :(.. I ended up going to church with my dad yesterday. It was his church which I haven't been to in years. It was sweet going and seeing old memories flood back while I was there. It seems to have gotten smaller, I was supposed to talk to an old friend because she had cancer and is now good with four kids. But she wasn't there for some reason, I was a bit embarrassed when they pulled me up front with another lady and had us sit down and everyone to come over and pray for us. I started crying for some reason. I guess I was heartfelt, I did find it a little odd that my old pastor was kissing my cheeks. But he's known me since I was 5. Still was a bit awkward. But overall it was a good experience.

So besides that I'm waiting on my blood test results for today so I can proceed with treatment. :/ I guess something's going on with the lab and they are taking forever to process my results. Usually it takes 30 minutes. Wonder why it's taking so long today. I'm pretty tired though, think I might end up taking a nap during the infusion. Bobby and I had game night with Zach, Kacie and Devin last night before I have to go back into seclusion. I ended up going to bed at midnight, so I'm slightly tired. Which might be a good thing, it may help me get through Day 1 a bit better. I'm not too excited about my Mom taking care of me. It seems like she's always yelling at me every time she comes home. It's starting to wear me out. If its not over what I'm eating, it's over the fact I'm sleeping too much, (which is NORMAL) or I'm not getting enough exercise, or I'm on the computer too much (one day, two hours max) or I'm not reading in the right light. Or I'm always siding with my Dad (which I never said I was) Or that she wishes I was raised differently (she ALWAYS says this) or she starts talking about how when I'm older and have kids I won't be able to work etc etc. to which I reply, well no because if I'm the one making more money then Bobby is going to be the one staying home with the kids. Life doesn't WORK the way it used to! Times have changed. It just gets on my nerves because she thinks she's having a conversation with me. When all it is, is her telling me what to do. I don't find that much of a conversation when I'm not supposed to speak. I mean really might as well be talking to a brick wall at that point. 

Got my blood results back and everything is looking very good. I guess in terms of my body working I'm cruising along (save for the nausea)! So they sent me up to infusion, and now I'm just waiting on my order to be sent up so I can start this and get going home. I got good news though! They added new nausea medication to give me before the chemo starts! FINALLY, one that I recognize as being one of the best to get! Emend! I've heard in terms of nausea it is a life saver! I really hope it works wonders for me! So many other survivors mention it as being amazing. The last time I guess the medications they give me are supposed to last for three to five days. It hardly lasted six hours. (Although I still think it may have been an overdose when I took that one pill, because it felt like overdose nausea. Not regular nausea, not dehydration nausea, not gassy nausea, not stomach flu nausea, and not nausea from a hangover, but definitely felt like overdose nausea) don't ask me how I know the differences between the nausea feelings, my body can just feel the difference. And yea I have felt overdose nausea a few times. It wasn't a BAD overdose to where I needed to be hospitalized but I did get sick. The first time I think I was eight, mom gave me too much that day, on top of having taken one medication for the flu I took cold medicine and then had a ton of cough drops. Ended up puking up on the hallway floor. The second time was actually last year, I missed one of my BC pills and the doctor said its okay to take the one you missed with the next one, or as soon as you remember. So I found out the hard way that taking them within 4 hours or less of each other my body doesn't like it and I get sick. I got nausea occasionally with my acne medication too but it wasn't the same feeling. The worst nausea to me has to be hands down an overdose nausea. I'd rather have a hangover! Maybe I'm just weird being able to tell the different feelings, but its true! But I took an anti nausea pill this morning to get it in my system and help out. They switched a few of mine because I couldn't swallow one, so now I have a dissolve version of it, they said that the pill usually tastes bland but this one that I have tastes fruity. Haha! Mm I'm drinking some mint green tea that I got from one of the nurses that comes by to give drinks/food to patients during infusion. It's pretty good, but its no matcha tea soy latte. Obsessed with the stuff lately. I've gotta be careful with it though because I think the soy is helping me gain weight xD I gained 3 lbs. But that might be because I'm back to eating normal again too. So we will see how this weeks infusion goes.. So far it's going well. Just finished all my premedications and working my way through my second chemo bag (the red devil, or as I like to refer to it as my fifteen minutes of fruit punch, I want to think positively about it!) so far I'm feeling good. Had a cup of soup and my tea, crackers and chips. I'm sitting next to an elder couple and they are absolutely adorable. The husband (whose getting his chemo) keeps asking his wife if I am eating anything and how I'm holding up. I think it's really really sweet of him, especially since he looks like he's in worse shape than I am! He shouldn't be so worried about a stranger, but it makes me really hopeful to meet someone so caring like that. I just hope his treatment goes well! He's getting extra premedication infusions because his blood work I guess came back very low. But we're survivors and we will both get past it! Maybe some worse than others but hey we will still survive and push through. Just another hour left it seems! Then I should be good to head home. Lets hope the nausea is good and gone! After this treatment all my hair should be gone. Gonna be fun, I already feel much colder haha! Well hopefully today doesn't go as bad as the last time. We will see. I'll also find out later today what my new work schedule will look like in a month or two. Hopefully I don't get moved from 25 hours to 20 hours. But there's not many 25 hour spots and I'm one of the last folks to put in their request today. So. Hopefully good luck you know?? Haha my pee is red-pink! Sorry had to say it. Still find it funny to see. Ugh I've got a slight headache, side effect unfortunately of the anti-nausea meds. But manageable.. That reminds me the other day I had lunch with Bobby, Kacie and Zach over at chandler mall and we ended up doing some shopping. Kacie had to have Zachs ring finger sized for his wedding band (their getting married in October) and so Zach ended up somehow convincing Bobby to get his finger sized. 8.5 I have to remember that since Bobby wants a unique type of wedding band, and its going to end up being custom made because its not something you can just pick up at a jewelers. It's a wooden ring! I saw a guy once at work with a solid black wooden ring with intricate designs, and mentioned it to Bobby and ever since he's wanted to get one so badly. Rosewood with a gray maple thin stripe or crisscross. Since he won't be reading these blogs till my treatment is over, he won't know what I'm saying unless his mother or sister mentions it to him, he's already aware that I'll be getting one for him eventually, just not when or what design. I'm kind of thinking of surprising him with it on our two year anniversary but since its a wedding band I'm iffy on that. He won't be able to wear it till we get married so, I don't know if I just want to surprise him with it come that day in the future. Eh we will see, maybe I'll surprise him with something else, I don't think that Alaskan cruise will be happening next year so that's not much of an option. I'll figure something out! Maybe a weekend at a romantic getaway here in Arizona, maybe somewhere in flagstaff or payson. Might be something we could do! I will have to look into it. It also depends on if I've had surgery or not that month. I don't know if my surgery will be in January or February. If so maybe I can do the trip before the surgery. Ah well.. I'm sleepy so I think I'm going to take a nap! But yea that's what's been up lately :) ill probably post again today or tomorrow depending!