Day 2 first chemo

Ugh. I can't explain how sick I am. It's like a constant roller coaster starting from last night. I took one of my anti-nausea medications (Compazine) and immediately started feeling sick! ( I was perfectly fine before taking it) I ended up throwing up all night, with a heart burn like feeling to the point I couldn't breathe well. I was almost taken to the ER, but luckily I took my second pill (Ondansetron) and started to feel relief. I ended up passing out from pure exhaustion once Bobby left. I kept him over way later than we wanted to, since he has to work in the morning. He's really exhausted today. I feel really bad but he's being so supportive and trying to be there for me as much as possible. He has no idea how much strength he gives me to get through this. I only wish my time with him was longer. Unfortunately we didn't get the house we put a bid on. I have no idea why, and Bobby won't explain till he gets here. I really miss him. Today was a bit better than yesterday but I did end up throwing up. Probably from the food I ate and the fact I waited a little too long to take my medicine. It's hard getting up the courage to take it. I found out crackers help alleviate some of the nausea so I've been snacking on them. Problem is I'm hungry and I keep eating probably more than I should. Sigh. I can't wait till all this nausea is gone. It's really a pain and doesn't feel good at all. I'm surprised my doctor hasn't called to see how I am doing.. I'm starting to wonder if I can make it to work Thursday. I hope so but at this point I don't know how I will be feeling. It really sucks. I wish I didn't have to suffer like this.. But if its only two times out of three weeks I should look at that as a blessing, some people I've heard have the nausea the entire time. Problem is with my throwing up, it tastes so gross and I choke on it sometimes. Not to mention it doesn't help to keep fluids down or food. I'm hoping I don't get dehydrated or malnourished. I've already lost 10lbs in the last few weeks. 2lbs from just yesterday!! At this point sure I'll get to the weight I've been trying to get to, but its not at the healthy way!! Sigh. Also I think my hair is starting to fall out already. Not in big chunks yet, but definitely a few here and there. I've got my wigs prepared, so that should help. I just really hate this and can't wait for it to be over with. Bobby left a few hours ago, around the time I fell asleep. I was able to eat some soup and so far keep it down. But I don't know how long that'll last as my stomach is feeling funny now. I still have to take my last steroid pill before bed. Ugh this wont be easy. I really hope this is all done and over with tomorrow.